When I began this blog I knew that it was going to be a struggle to be able to post as often as I started out, but Man…I didn’t know it would be this hard. First off back in January I didn’t suspect that I would leave my husband in February and then I didn’t realize how much stuff I get into on a weekly, daily… dare I saw hourly basis. Well, this morning in the shower I resolved to get back into this blog and be really proactive about it. If I can just carve out one day a week folks I think I will feel that I have accomplished so much. So I’m starting again . I don’t know what day I’m going to blog (don’t get me to lying) but I will blog AT LEAST once a week. That’s where I’ve been.
Now…what have I been doing? Working!!! Working at Roche, working at home, working at the shop (yes folks… I’m a licensed cosmetologist that still does hair every Friday) and if I can get a catering job…I’m working on that too. When I dream of what I want to do I always see myself running my little cafe and taking care of my husband and child(ren). Did I forget to say that my husband and I have reconciled? Oh and we are kinda-sorta househunting. Like I said working ya’ll. But I digress, back to my dream future. I cannot stress how much I love to cook and make people happy with my food. So it’s nature that I want to spend my time doing something that I love and that is cooking for others to enjoy. I know that having a food based business would require alot of my time, but I still want to do it. AND, I don’t think that it would take away from the dynamics of my family. I don’t want to have an all day cafe, I want to have a part-time cafe (maybe breakfast and lunch and on special occassions, maybe be open for dinner). I want to be able to do the things for my family and my household that need to be done and not feel exhausted at the end of the day and then feel like I need to play catch-up on the weekends. For some women working a 40 hour a week job is the best thing for them and they feel like they are making it. Me personally (and I am stressing this is my personal opinion) something is getting missed. I work 30-32 hours a week and I hate it. Not that I hate my job, no I don’t hate my job and if anyone from Roche is reading this don’t start no mess. What I’m saying is my kid is in ballet, choir, and hip hop dance. That’s three things on three different days of the week. I also am working as a cosmetologist and trying to build up my business Red Oven Creations. I waited a long time to have children (we had been married six years by the time Kristian was born) and when I decided to have children I decided to have children. I love being a mom and I want to be able to enjoy every moment of it. If I’m exhausted from dealing with outside people all day, what am I giving to my beautiful baby girl who is still excited to see me when I pick her up? If on Saturdays I’m running around taking care of the things I didn’t get to during the week, am I really taking care of my family? I have one day off a week, Mondays, and I try my best to get as much crammed into that day as I can, cause let’s face it people I’m not getting anything else done the rest of the week. I lost the domain name to my website (that’s another crazy story that will have to be saved for another blog) because whenever I had the time to renew my script the site was busy and then I forgot after a week of trying, went back to it and realized I missed it by a couple of days and then it was too late. I wanted to cry then I got mad, because it was another time issue. I used to do my business stuff on one of my days off, now I only have one day off so there you have it.
I think the tone of this blog has turned into a complaint…so I have to stop and tell something positive. I’m in the middle of a new decorating project! I’m still in my apartment (the lease is for a year and I’m not rolling in dough were I can afford to break a lease just because my husband came to his senses; besides I like my place) and I think I have furnished to the best of my abilities and I’m now in the accessorizing phase. Well one of my projects centers around my magnetic spice jars and all of my knives. I have about three Santuko knives in a drawer that are really in need of a better place of honor in my kitchen. I also have knives in my knife block, but not a spot for my Santuko’s. So I wanted to buy one of the magnetic knife holders but everytime I look at them in the store I balk . Plus I have bought these magnetic spice jars that I absolutely love and going to Saraga, the international grocery store where you can find just about any spice for unbelievably reasonable prices, has made it necessary for a place to put all these spices. So I got to thinking of ways to combine the two needs, incorporate my kitchen colors (my favorite color blue) and stay withing my budget which is wwwaaaaayyyyy cheap. This is what I’ve come up with so far.
I still need to add the magnetic strip for the knives, but rent and car payment were do this week and I needed to be sensible. I will get the rest that I need and finish it up within the next couple of weeks and post the final product for all to see.
I want to keep going with more news but I’m tired and I have to get up at 5:30 tomorrow and I know I won’t be sleeping soon if I don’t STOP. So guys…maybe I’ll try this again tomorrow…wish me luck.